Monthly Archives: March 2016

I was realizing today that it’s not jealously that I feel about Taylor’s talent. It’s envy. That’s what I want to edit.

My writing went fairly well yesterday. It’s not quite the same story that I originally wrote but it’s mostly there. A few new details emerged as I was writing so it was fun to discover those. So far it has the feeling of optimism but I am feeling something dark under the surface and I can’t wait for it to reveal itself.

Something else I was thinking about today is I’ve been starting to notice that a lot of questions that I ask have unnecessary add on questions. Such as: Do you want to go to the store with me or would you rather stay home? There’s no need to ask the second question as it will be answered by the first one. I’ve been trying to catch myself doing it and edit myself before the 2nd question comes out. I find that I even do it in work emails but it’s a lot easier to catch myself typing out an unnecessary question when I see myself writing it than it is to catch myself when I’m talking. Sometimes the questions can get a little more complicated especially at work and can sometimes slip past me. Like when asking for instruction on how to proceed on a task. I could ask: Do you want me to send that excel sheet to the boss or would you like to look it over before I send it? Again, the 2nd question will be answered by the first one and so there is no need to ask it. I find that I am spending a whole lot less time on emails now that I am editing out questions that don’t need to be asked.

Well I’ve got a story waiting on me to put words to so that’s all for now.

So, I wrote for an hour last night and was pretty pleased with what had come out and then either through my own ineptness or some fluke with the program I was writing on I lost every bit of what I wrote. I couldn’t seem to get it to save and I even tried copying and pasting it into an email to myself and nothing I could come up with worked. I cried. I thought about posting about it last night but I was too upset with it being gone. So, I was telling my boyfriend about it this morning and he asked if I took a picture of it with my phone. Brilliant idea! Now, why didn’t I think of that?? Too late it was gone. So, now I’m trying to bring myself to re-write the whole thing and maybe that’s for the best. Maybe the re-write will be even better. On the other hand I also keep telling myself why bother which it just plain silly. Of course I should bother!! So, I’m going to start over again tonight. I’m going to use a different program this time as I do not trust the one I was using last night.

On a whole different note. I’ve decided to choose to be happy. So, many times I’ve chosen to be miserable and what a waste of a choice. What does it matter what could have or should have been? I let it matter so many times of course but it’s such a waste of time. There’s a Dawes song where Taylor writes something like the only point of looking back is too see how far we’ve come. And that is so true. The line is actually more brilliant than what I’ve just written but that’s what I’m taking from it for now. If you’ve never listened to Dawes then I suggest that you check them out. A Google search will find you almost everything you need to know about them. Taylor is an amazing writer and I am in awe every time I listen to anything that he’s written. Really, he’s brilliant and has a way with words that I am often jealous of but out of that jealously comes a challenge to be a better writer myself. So, thank you Taylor Goldsmith, challenge accepted! Folks, choose to be happy! It’s a lot easier than you may think even when it seems to be the hardest thing to do.

I have no good excuse for not writing the past few days. Not even any distractions that have kept me from being on task. I am writing today so I’m not going to beat myself up over the past few days. My brother texted me a link on Monday to an article that Chuck Palahniuk wrote giving writing tips. Here it is. Hopefully I’ve added it correctly.

https://litreactor.com/essays/chuck-palahniuk/stocking-stuffers-13-writing-tips-from-chuck-palahniuk

The first one is the one I’ll be employing right away. It’s a good one. All of them are just great and I plan to keep them in mind as I continue this writing thing. Haha Very eloquent. Ah well. Words are making their way out of my head and into the world so I’ll take it.

I’m off now to go get that writing done today.

I”m still here. I don’t have much to say today except that after this short post I’m going to work on getting down my latest story idea so it looks like today I will finally do some writing. It feels good and I want to continue feeling good and productive.

It’s so easy to allow any number of things to distract me and keep me from accomplishing the goals that I set for myself. Of course I always have very good reasons why my current distraction is important enough to keep me from what I should be doing, what I need to be doing. Writing. All week long I told myself that I’m too tired from working all day so I’ll spend the weekend writing. This past weekend instead of writing I spent the better part of the weekend looking up my family history on ancestry.com. I told myself that this is important because if all goes well the plan is to share all of what I found with my family as a gift to all of them for Christmas. That in itself isn’t a bad thing. It’s that I didn’t spend one minute writing. After telling myself all week that this was the weekend that I was going to begin to get these ideas out of my head and written down. With this lil blog I plan to make writing a habit. I want to make writing a need & not a want. I need to write today no matter how tired I may be. These stories don’t get to live and grow if I just keep them trapped in my head. I must allow them to escape and give them the freedom to discover the rest of their adventure and where their journey may lead them. I owe them that.

So here it is. My first blog post ever. I’ve got so many things that I want to write about. So many story ideas rolling around in my head and yet I seldom seem to get around to actually writing anything. Obviously because I’ve been distracting myself either on purpose or accidentally but to be honest it’s more on purpose. It’s because there is this underlying fear that if I actually make myself write these stories in my head that I’m going to find out that I am utter shit as a writer and that it was all just a silly notion. Well, I have the most amazing brother that I could ever hope to have & it is because of him that I am writing this now. Maybe this lil blog will help me to focus my energies into writing if I will finally address the fact that I have been deliberately distracting myself from doing something that is extremely important to me. So, every time I find myself distracted because I have to binge watch House of Cards on Netflix cuz well it’s just an awesome show & Kevin Spacey is amazing in it & I think every one should be watching it. Well you get the point. I love you Kevin Spacey but I need to be writing .  I’m still gonna binge watch till I’m caught up but hopefully in between I’ll also get some writing done. 🙂